hey padfoot, glad to see u here in davidcn,
you've been really courageous too by sharing your intimate thoughts & feelings with the rest of us which i'm sure one who've read and understood would've applaud for it. I was much feeling the same as you but perhaps not as in depth as you've triggered alots of my thoughts with the stuff you've covered here. I don't have the flair for writtings, as much as i wanted to have, it's kinda difficult for me to express it out in words and in this aspect but i'm glad you've done it wonderfully well and in English and have people like me reading it, sharing the same sentiments, you don't know how great it feels. But ya know, i always felt the biggest reward i've gain from David is when i started to look inwardly within myself and recognized that fact of my existence whenever i'm in that self-denial state. As people had said the biggest fear is none other but fear in yourself, David's music gave me that strength to face that true self. He has been really encouraging with what he had said "
If you've a dream, runaway go for it!", or is it that he sung in that 22 song, "
when you realised you could be waiting in vain, you could begin that journey to your dream even with you alone." That's how inspiriting he is.