Now,some words from the bottom of my heart...
Too much words that I want to say,but...my english is too limited.I know this is also a challenge to me.so I must rise to the challenge,then I could face myself and have the right to say somthing about what have David given me.
actually,everyone has a dream.No metter it is a very big dream and hard to be done,or it is a so small one that too easy to make out.but why someone is successful while the others are failed,and then their whole life are mediocre?one sister of my senior at school told me:"That's a true things.there is a investigation in Harvard.there are 5% students have their long-range and strong goals,and they insist them forever;there are 25% students have their near future goal,and they make efforts for their goal;their are 70% students have goal but they don't know them clearly,and decide to follow the feeling.
finally,those who don't know what they want to be,or say,don't know how to plan their life,did nothing great things in their career,and they lead a very common life in the society.those who have their near future goal and work hard,leading a middle and above of the social stratum.those who have their long-range goal,leading a successful life and become very important person in their field.
If you have a specific goal,even if a job that you want to take badly,then you make efforts on it,at last you must could get it."
what she said shocked me a lot.when she asked me what is my favorate work that I long for,I rack my brains,many of ideas passed by,but I can't speak out one word.coz each of those is not my favorate one.and I found I don't know what I really need and what is my plan of the life!How terrible!I don't want to be one as the 70% of the Harvard students!but how?even now I don't know my goal!how to make efforts for?
then we talked a lot.in fact I had many kind of dreams.but when they met the reality,they became unfessible.I negate one by one .when I almost despair,suddenly there was a light flashing.I finally know what I was longing for since I was a child!A work for the communication of the different culture between countries!and I never give up this dream in the heart,although sometimes I can't see it,it is hidden by my vanity,by my utilitarianism.
I want to go abroad,to learn about culture!for a further step to close to my dream!but I know how hard it is!and i'm really regret I was not choose a major which I like most in university.if I could recgonize what is my favorate field earlier,I have got more than now I got,and closer to my dream!
but everything has gone,and what I should care about is today!
look through the 21 years I have taken,shilly-shally,worry about personal gains and losses,regret what I have done,struggle in my deep heart,suspect muself,puzzle about the future...I growed up in stagger. I have forgotten how I get better from the upset before I know David's music.But I know now I could absorb courage and power from him and his music.I could learn a lot from him,and what I appreciate him most is,he think over the world,the life,and introspect himself.He also will down,will doubt,will puzzle,but he never give up,he knows clearly what he should do and what he need.he knows what others need too.so he insist his ideal,and achieving his ideal by his songs.he put his thoughts in his songs,put his heart,his passion,his wish,his love,his all in it.and his music is not only touch people's hearts by pleasent melody,but also by the soul of the music.yes,there is a soul we could feel among all his songs--love.easy to say but hard to do.he do the best a musician should do--exploit his talent to bring more and more inspiration to us.tell us how to get more significance from the life,how to face failure or difficulty,how to grow up,how to understand other people,how to love others and get love from others.he knows we should pity time,pity what we have gotten by the god.he feel the life by heart.then he tell us his thinking ,then teach us to think.think more about the sociaty,the poor and the rich,the war,the born and the death.
oh...too much I want to say,but...i don't know how to say.
in a word,I learn a lot from david.he is a great guy,and if he is not a musician,he also is a winner in his life,coz he understand how to get more significant idea from the life--everyone has his life,but none could give me those he have given to me.
now I must learn english hard.I must have a high score in TOEFL and GRE.althrough that's too hard to me,and it seems a big moutain I can't conquer.I must have a try!
I will try to chase my dream,insist it!forever!
[ Last edited by sandsBYgone on 2004-9-9 at 15:10 ]
